Soul Ready or Not

  I love Sundays it rhymes with Sundae yum yum. Some Sundays I dont want to go to church because I dont have the body voltage and I am working through stuff.  I am the type of person that hates to put on a mask anymore and pretend I am okay to please the public.   Unfortunately church these days there is a expectation to put on a happy clappy face and have no needs or problems - the prayer muscle is extremely limp whenever I have been in need and maybe that is good thing so that I rely only on King Jesus and not people? I ask God why there are not any mature Christians that know how to pray for hurting sick people, where are the prayer warriors?  I used to be the one praying for people at church even with the all the wounds I had and then I became very drained from mould and lymes and a weird mitochondrial illness - that I couldn't identify. Getting out the door took all my effort and church would wipe me out for days.  The saddest thing ever is that nobody...