Firm foundations
Sometimes I will be sent to some very interesting places for recon missions to gather prayer ammo for my next fasting adventures and after this experience at a Gospel Sunday event - bible verses written thousands of years ago came to life and became so relevant to me.
I know now, how the flesh and worldly culture shape God's meticulously crafted human creations with erroneous thinking and a distorted belief about love and righteousness.
It all seems too hard to be holy and righteous - in right standing with the God head - to be in a personal relationship with God almighty from a regular living human perspective. Loving lusty sex, alcohol and the myriad of false refuges the modern wealthy world provides just the perfect array of spiritual tranquilisers.
I wanted to have the spiritual blindness of my own pride exposed in this season and at the same time hold territory for God's Kingdom with my sista in Christ at this event.
The holy spirit in us affects the atmosphere, the holy spirit is the same resurrection power that raised Jesus from the dead and lives inside of every saved believer it is a down payment on our eternity. Immortality does not come cheap it cost the life of Jesus Christ murdered on a cross but mentioning the sinless perfect blood and the lamb of God might stir some degree of conviction, or accidental condemnation when presented with a religious superior spirit.
Regardless of the empty Gospel the songs still carried seeds of light and the blessed vocal chords of the performers were still effective even though they are deep in sin christ still died for them. God has a plan and I trust in it because I sizzled away in spiritual blindness for 42 years !!!!
Also in God's generosity he doesn't take their talent away from their vocal chords just because they don't read a bible or have their spirituality tracking on the narrow gate just yet. They shine musically even though he used his platform to spruik political support for everyone to use all their energy to vote for witchy fish Mandy Nolan to counteract the Australian Christian Lobby's bigoted transphobic campaign. Hmmm paid money to hear this one sided wokey doke crud.
And here's me with massive heart pains unable to fuction or even do my zine fair table because I can't unblock this dam of unlived dreams. CHOCK FULL of my own pride and bad attitudes with the tag christian slapped onto my echo chamber.
While I have struggled with my health for the past decade barely able to coherently arrange my own dinner table and remember to breathe through my nose not my mouth. Why did my functionality as a creative human get cut so short?
Will it ever be restored as I quest endlessly to find the cure?
Why is my creative flow so constipated ? Is there a reason for a 3 year delay in my artistic foray? Its like a volcanoe rumbling that Im sure - Krakatoa yeaaah
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